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"Don't bite the hand that feeds you"  It's the quote I often get from many of those Haitians in the U.S. every time I stand up for my rights and my beliefs.

They always quick to bite and fight another Haitian for another nations..SHIELDING FOR THE HAITIANS OPPRESSORS!

They fight Haitians who try their best  to stand up for their own rights and their beliefs.

I could remember in 1993 SOME Haitians people, who most of them came here in early age or born here would put together with other nations who used to beat Haitians people in schools in Miami because they did not want themselves to be seen as Haitians.

And also SOME beautiful Haitians girls would date any ugly guys who came to school with even with bad hygiene, such as bad breath, dirty clothe, no shower, ect. for as long as he was not Haiti he would be just fine for them. The reason beyond that because they did not like being with Haitians or want other people to know they were Haitians.

Within those Haitians there are two kind of Haitian groups: One who just don't like being Haitian at all, and another who do not like being  with Haitians because they do not like the way Haitian people let other nations treat them, and that  one I can understand that now  because a few times in my life I had denied being Haitian and said that I was from somewhere else. Mainly because of the living conditions of some Haitians.  I complained about that before " It's really affects me as a Haitian who just happen to be like them". Especially, when those who called Haitians leaders or who represent Haitian people can't even stand up for their own selves and their own rights. Instead, they rather or quick to become citizen of other nations instead of worry about their rights an living conditions of the people they are represented.

Despite some Haitians effort to clear Haitians reputation, trying to bring proud into the Haitian people,  and despite all the so-called Haitians superstars and great artist names out there, etc, many Haitians still feel they same way today.

I think some Haitians just say they proud or act proud to be Haitian probably because they feel ashamed of people that may talk down about them.  So, why keep saying you proud to be Haitian or trying to act like you proud to be Haitian, when your actions and words do not match?

"Don't bite the hand that feeds you"  With the same mouth that uses that quote against me, and it is with the mouth that uses the theme "Proud to be Haitian";  "Proud To Be The First Black Independent Nation" while you are trying to make other Haitians recognize themselves as beggars instead of be proud?

However, I understand where it all comes from and what's the problem.

The way I think It Is: The REAL problem

I think the main Haitian MAIN problem of not feeling comfortable of being who they are is the LACK OF EXPRESSIONS: Fail to express oneself can cause one to not feeling good about himself or herself.

 
 
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Well, he can apologize all he can until he can no longer brief and that won't change a thing, for the most important thing he's not alone. What I mean is that he might be the first one to always carelessly say those stupids things about Haiti publicly, but there are millions out there in this country that think just like him.  Although,  they not gonna come forward publicly and say those things, but most of them would say them one way or the other.  And, those are not just people who are rich or republicans, but majority of them are just regular folks that you see everyday, such as in any kind of workplaces, churches, hospitals,bars, etc. People that are laughing at you at all time and having lunch break with you. It's just how their hypocrisy system work.  For example, at work, they force you to smile even though you are not feeling well or there isn't any reason to smile.


To find the way those people really think is to go online,. For instance, many time I checked news on some websites about Haiti, and read through the discussions forum I usually find most of the comment about Haiti are negative with heavy racial remarks which you're not gonna hear from watching news on TV.  Because the TV stations are more worry about the reputation of the country, they may not want to air on TV how people in this country offensively treat, talk, or think negatively about certain people based on their race, culture, or national origin, etc... They not gonna show it on TV for the world to find out, but online you will. 

Well, like I said, he is not alone- He is not the only person thinking like that about Haitian people. In my opinion, I believe many people who work among Haiti or with Haitians people are probably his close friends of him, who drink, smoke, and laugh about those bad things he say regarding Haitian people. In other word, they congratulate him, while at the same time in public they pretend they not agree with him. In fact, I believe some probably even tell him what to say and how to say those negative things. 


In conclusion, it is no wonder to believe that the kind of people just like Rush are the ones that really in control of this country, but not the person some people think.
 
 
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This is a replied to a facebook user who commented, and seemed appalled to a link that I posted about Human Rights Abuses.  As see on the left, on the image, it's the comment he wrote, and I replied:

 First of all, Haitian like you already sold your own self and you own mother. 

Therefore, you are the kind of Haitian corrupt that you are talking about: One THAT WILL TAKE A HAITIAN LIFE TO GET SPECIAL TREATMENT, FAVOR FROM THE U.S. AND MONEY. What else ... 

NOW, THAT'S GREEDY!

Yeah, I'm here in the U.S. but for many reasons. Two of the most ones are: "My children" and next one because of "HAITIAN LIKE YOURSELF". 

Haitian like you are very dangerous treat to Haitian like myself. As I stated before regarding the Human Rights Abuses site: " U.S.using someone ( you) from same country with the victim (me) to attack the victim (me) to cover up (Shield) their violations. So you are one of a kind of a good SHIELD. 

This is not about politics here.

It's about Human Rights Abuses toward people because of race, nationality, opinions. Using the fact that one is from a poor country thinking that they can do whatever they want with him/ her. Once that person stands up for his/ her rights they want to hurt that person the best way they can.

You can sit there talking bad about your country and your people all day, but when here in the U.S. they put doodoo in your mouth, you say it taste good. You can't ever stand up for your own rights, so you are not a man.

You rather support strangers that keeps bringing your own people and country down everyday..That's despicable!

Me, I played by the rules, not by favor. I don't want the people be nice to me, don't need NO SYMPATHY... just follow the HUMAN RIGHTS LAWS,and we'll be just fine. 

You do not have no time to think about your rights, because the way they been treated you for so long, you do not think you deserved any rights, nor do you think it's wrong. That's the kind of thoughts they created on your mind, so it become who you. But you TOO desperate to see, since you got blind with the fact that you are TOO poor.

Check me out! See, I'm the kind of guy you'll find on WELFARE collect cash money in the USA anyway I can, just to avoid being around those AMERICAN ABUSERS. You can't do that, and you won't ever understand that.

You probably working soooo hard and spend most of your money in the U.S. bills and you still NOTHING but a HAITIAN

 
 
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Last 4 years, majority Haitians including most of Haitians artists were forgot about Gonaives...They were acting as though Gonaives, "The city where most talented Haitians come from" was never existed.

I just couldn't believed that people treated Gonaives like that. Like it was never known as one of the best place in Haiti.

Simply because of natural disasters that had happened in the city.

In fact, I was expecting they would do a lot of big concerts and programs in Gonaives city in attempt to revive it, and to instill pride into the young to let them know everything will be fine, instead, they were rather acting selfish and ignored it.

They were almost never named Gonaives city in their musics.

I sit home on my computer almost every day, checked out new carnivals, whether it be Racine musics, Kompa, Rap Kreyol, to find out if they would mantioned Gonaives city, but all I could hear were almost every cities in the country but NO GONAIVES!

But, it's ok. Now, Gonaives, and its citizens are ready to help you all! And May We Pray Together!


 
 
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Gonaives is there today because it was meant to be still.  But, if it was for the so-called donations organizations,  the city would be perished.   


Some of the important  things that I learned from that incident  are the fact that despite there were many donations given on behalf of Gonaives city and the people,  they weren't any ambulances, trucks garbages given to the city and the people during and aftermath of the hurricane, to help clean the city out of the remaining bodies, mud, and  also, to keep the city always clean in the future.  I was expecting that a lot, but it didn't happen.  In fact, I was hoping for a brand new more beautiful Gonaives.

That's a clear example to show that most of those donations raising do not help most of the people they are raised on behalf of.

For that reason, I doubt all those donations and organizations that going on now for Port-au-Prince. Especially, when they keep talking about FOOD FOOD,BLANKET, WATER.   That seems like the whole focus will stay just on those subjects, as usually.

Although, I understand that food, water, and blanket are VERY important, but In a situation like this, what I think they should have worried the most, is finding a way to get those people out of the streets, and out of  many part of the damaged city temporarily, and take them to other none affected cities in the country, or other close countries, such as the Florida,USA, Dominican Republic, Cuba, etc..  And, have those people stay there until their city streets, houses, have been fixed, clean, and been inspected to make sure  they are ready for people to live in again.  

Does it cost to much to do all that?  Or will it hurt those some or most of the donations organizations because the situation may be ameliorated or fixed too quick?

Meanwhile, I feel relief by the way I see the whole word react...I mean showing so much care for Haiti.  And, I hope that this can be a change for Haitians' better lives in the future.
 
 
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As the thought of going back to Haiti, my country, has often come to my mind, the first things that always ponders in my mind is the toilet issues, the garage, than electricity. However, the toilet is the one that bothers me the most. In fact, I rather suffer of food than living with the kind of toilet. But, unfortunately, most people who claim they care about Haiti and Haitian condition don't talk about that. Unfortunately,  most of the news on Haitian people and DONATION organizations on behalf of Haiti are focusing only on food, poverty. Although running donation is like part-time jobs or full-jobs for the organizations that run.  I just can't help wonder what kind of people to think that donations for food can get a country back to its feet or change the lives of the people to a better life.  I'm a firm believer if those donation were concentrated on cleaning the country out of the garbages, and help created proper toilet in Haiti, that would have been taken care for so long, and Haiti would have had less poverty.

What do I mean by that?

Well, picture yourself if you from Haiti, and think about the # 1 that comes to your mind when you wish that you rather live in Haiti, but that one thing that scares you the most. Besides the new nemesis ( what I called conspiracy to scare Haitians) of kidnapping that I and most of you who left Haiti in the 80's and early 90's are not used to. If there's one thing that worries you the most, I think that the toilet, garbage, and electricity probably stand out the most than FOOD too.  The question I want to ask, why is it that I do not hear the talk and news on these issues more often than other issues that can't be resolved easily.  Poverty, for example, will always be there no matter what. In fact, NO countries on earth is free of poverty and poor people, for poor and poverty are a part of  every country social lifestyle. Therefore, all these donations and projects that based on " FOOD FOR POOR PEOPLE AND CHILDREN IN HAITI" are not profit Haiti as much they would profit if they were intended to take care of those basics issues that I'm referring to.




 FACTS:

Example, if you take me for example, a guy like me who does not enjoy the living condition of the Human Rights Abuses in U.S, so you can wonder WHY I DON'T GO BACK TO MY COUNTRY. Well, as you reading this, you know the true reason, but the world do not know that. They probably think the reason is what written on the internet or newspaper usually by mostly white american  which usually focus on food, and poverty. However, I could have lived an happier life in Haiti with very LITTLE FOOD, but simply to have proper access to proper toilet, streets with no garbage all over, and electricity.

In fact, I think that focusing on the FOOD DONATIONS too much is probably one of Haiti' poverty nemesis because every time someone or another country thinks of helping Haiti, the focus is usually about food since that's all they hear everyday about Haiti.  So, my other question is why all the HAITIAN LEADERS and those who keep calling themselves Haitian proud, especially those who from and grew up in Haiti, who read all the news about Haiti, can not voicing their voices loudly to let the world know the reasons why many Haitians are everywhere in the world, but not in their homeland Haiti?

Conclusion

In conclusion,  I wonder if Haitians people lives are mostly decided on what other foreigns people think or what us Haitian who from and lived in Haiti who know better think of what we Haitians and Haiti really needs. Because, I have never heard in a church, Haitian groups, or even online on Haitians websites people talking about helping Haiti and raising donation for those issues: Toilet, garbage in the streets, and electricity, except for FOOD.




 
 
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My baby girl,Diane, had just gotten her first birthday last week, the day before the Thanksgiving day. She’s a very wonderful, intelligent, sweet, and admirable baby. On top of that, she knows how to show daddy and mommy her appreciation for what they do for her.  To show her love for her mommy or daddy, she usually taps mommy and daddy's back when she being held by either one of them. In general, she is the best at expressing her loving to her parents, whether by tapping her hands on our backs or with her gorgeous smile.:).  Furthermore, Diane seems to feisty, so she always actives no matter what time it is. Whether early morning of late night, if she’s not sleeping, she usually all over the house playing and touching anything she can find. Sometimes, she likes to play on the TV buttons although as she knows what to do with them maybe thinks she can fix the TV. Also, she likes to play on the TV cable plug by constantly tries to pull the plug off the hook.  She likes to play everywhere in the house, but her favorite places are her brother and sister’s room and the kitchen. At her brother and sister’s room, she just likes to be around and plays with them.  At the kitchen, Diane likes to play with the cabinets. Besides that, Diane likes to walk and run around the house, jumping on and off the living room furniture. Therefore, as a daddy who cares,  I always alert when she’s not sleeping to make sure she’s safe while waking up and she playing.

Diane’s favorites TV show is “Ni Hao, Kai-lan” and “Wow! Wow! Wubbzy” of Nick Jr channels.  She always smiles when turn the channel TV to 47 Nick Jr, but she smiles even harder when her favorites shows are playing.

I love my baby Diane so much, so I decided that I got her her own website name as a way of keeping her close to me wherever I go. Moreover, having her makes me feel BIG and SPECPIAL, and that’s how much she means to me too. I can’t wait to see her grow enough to go school,  and ,yet, sometimes I wish that she will always be that little special baby that she is because she’s very fun and sweet when around. Diane has two siblings, a big brother and big sister, so she is the youngest. I have lots of wishes for her, but my GREATEST  wish for her is that she’s growing in believe and in fear of the GREAT GOD of JESUS CHRIST. 

I love you my baby girl, Diane D.  Maybe the GREAT GOD of JESUS CHRIST protects and saves you when Mommy and Daddy can’t.  I love you Diane D.!

 

Hancy D.

 
 
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This the thought of a  TRUE hero where those who do not have any common sense will never understand it can be possible.  I have learned since my child not to believe in everything billions people believing, in another word, not  to follow the crownd and forget who I'm and what kind of inner power I have.  Therefore, I can do so much or much more than a lot of people. I'm a leader and a GOOD follower, and I'm going to make it!

What about you? Are you a GOOD follower and know when and how to follow what's right, or you just a looser that easily intimidate and follow what you think everyone is follow?
If you know yourself and believe in yourself, so you should stand for what's right and follow the right path.  Follow this cause on Facebook under username ( Jean Pe *Haiti* ) to promote better life for human being. It doesn't cost  you anything.

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I'm from Haiti. In the past 5 years I became to feel that I was being followed by a group of people whom I believe to be trained and indoctrinated by this brainwashed society system in this country with the so-called "Land of Freedom". Last I year, 2008,  I was almost killed by supporters of  the secret group society through a clinic that I went to check on my psychological to make sure that I was alright because I have people  stalked me in a the workplace, whom I believe that also checked on me outside of where I live to make sure that I was on my way to  work. And, when I started to complaint or talk about the issues, it seemed the situation had become worst; now not only in the workplace, but almost everywhere I would go.  In the streets, for instance, I have had specious people driving behind me while on my way to work. Many times I had cars driving behind me for long time, and would not change line of pass me by, and when I drive slow, the cars slow down too.  Lately, those stalkers have gotten intensified with their terror acts  to even more stalking, because  I would go to school and I started to see the same actions that I had seen when I was going to work and in the workplace. For example, sometimes, not one time, I would go to class late, I mean real late, and I found the teacher was not in class, but just walked in class right after I got in. One time, I got to school late, and the teacher  was waiting in her car ..suspiciously enough for me to believe that she was waiting for me, especially based on the way she acted before.  As soon as I got in the parking lot and parked my car, the teacher got out her car and went to the class as I was walking to the class.  That happened at Fairfield County Technical School on South Hamilton Rd in 2005.

Another times, I was in a library close to that same school, and I went to use restroom, and as I was leaving the restroom, there was a lady at the door peeking at me. She moved swiftly as I opened the door.  I didn't know what to say, so I walked away as though I didn't understand a thing.

I had spent worthless time complaint about this issue, but to whom?  I guess to those same people that doing those things to me.  Among are  the workplace, where all started; blacks people using by white American people as their shield to protect them from being accused of racist;   some clinics and hospitals sfaffs, some schools and teachers, etc..

Many foreign people I talked to about this issues, and even some of my families, they all gave me the same advice, and  " Just don't worry about it" " Act like you don't see them, because there is nothing you can do. "Stop wasting time because they would not listen to you"; They are the same people"  "They know exactly what's going on but they won't care" " As you know. you are not in your country" " You black and you from another country, than poor country".  These are some and only advices I could get from people that I have talked to until these days.  But, still I wanted to do something. So, I decided that I went to see a psychiatric, and that's when thing got deteriorated. I was almost got kill by this clinic staff, who happened to be the same people who practice those kind of horrific terror acts against people of different race and nationalities.  Those same people are the one who open up their breath full of bad breath claiming that they living in a free society "Land of Freedom.

Anyway, I knew what it is about, and I am only blogging about this issue, because I believe words are like weapons..they can make someone kills his or her own self, for as for me I feel bigger each day that I feel I have enough words to come online and posts.  The situation that I'm describing here, is much more deeper and serious than how I could explain it. Because for once, English is not my first language, and than even in my speaking language when I am talking to people about it, many can't seem to get it, but only if one likes to do research on that issues, or has been through the same situation, or knows anyone who has, and that person could have understood what I'm talking about.  

Basically, the most important story is,  whoever read my blog on this issue, who many of you  might be among those who are doing this thing to many other people, and would probably smiling on my face, and yet, doing this kind of thing: "Racial Spying", but they called it domestic spy, just like the called it "War on Terror", but when it simply " War on Race and nationality" and "War for Power".

Anyway, if you read this, paste it on to those you think might be of interested into is matter.  Let them know that I'm not afraid of them.  I'm not typing this blog down and believe that most people who would read it  are those who feel the same way I feel--No!  I believe the majority of those who would read it, and who need to read it, are those of you " The true terrorists out there", that doing these kind of thing to people that cannot brainwashed... No, I will not hate my own people, nor I will not hate those you are fighting in the war., nor I do not like you, no I don't want you to like me.   Okay?? AND YES! I'm going to the welfare and digg as much as I can get....so Fuck YOU ALL!
 
 
As I suffer  the webs, I have come accross thousands of website, blogs, and news sites, etc.. but when click on many of them, they about the same thing.  For example, if you check out most  websites made of Haitians people or those focus on Haiti,  you'll find out they have most of websites content stuff like usually bad political news on Hati, asking for  donation, try to do business, and talk about Haitians movies and musics.  The only different is the interaction between members on some websites.  Some websites, blogs, such as  < Everythinghaitian.com > < prevalhaiti.com>, and  <Haitiwithoutborders.com>  tend to have more members that actively at all time, while most of the rest are dead, but still about the same thing as the active ones.  Meanwhile, While there are so many  websites about Haiti, but it still not easyto find true information about Haiti, especially if you need information to satify your nostalgy about Haiti back in the 80's, and furthermore, it even harder if you want information on certain cities in Haiti besides the capital.   I think  the reasons beyond that is because people are more interesting to have their own websites to run busniess for money, so they just have to go with the easiest way.  I think it would be great to have Haitians websites with different content instead of same more stuff. I'm talking about websites communities that focus on helping the Haitians people with no intention of making a dime out of  Haitians people..in another word, to use the donation money they make on behalf of Haiti to create job for Haitians people, especially for Haitian like me who do not like to be around white American people because of their racism against black+Haitians.   Moreover,  I'd like to see Haitians websites created especially to help Haitians from Haiti to connect with their Haitians families in other countries, and so much more great new type of Haitians websites that I like to see around.
 
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